I read her post this morning and commented on it, but in thinking about it afterwards, I realized that I have more to say, and I wanted to share it here.
First, as I mentioned in my comment on Bernadette’s post, the song, “Jesus Take The Wheel”, is the story of my walk with the Lord. I’ve had some truly mountaintop experiences in my walk, but eventually things begin to slip, and eventually, I find myself on that sheet of invisible black ice, out of control and crying out to the Lord for help. Or to use Carrie Underwood’s words, “Jesus, please take the wheel!”.
The fact is, I was on one of those mountaintops a couple of months ago. My heart was filled with constant songs of praise and I was talking with the Lord constantly throughout the day. But slowly, that experience began to slip from my grasp, and temptation began to be a more frequent visitor in my thoughts. At first, I was zealous to sweep those temptations away, but over time it becomes easier to listen to them, and now I occasionally find myself toying with the idea of listening to them.
There is no black ice on the road, not yet. But the weather is getting colder and it’s beginning to look like rain, or maybe even snow.
When I read Bernadette’s post this morning I seemed to be looking into a mirror. I could clearly see the progression from mountaintop to black ice road, which is probably where I would have ended up again if the cycle had not been broken. The Lord, having broken the cycle, has offered me a unique opportunity for reflection. Through reflection, I am sure I will be able to discern what I need to be doing differently so these yo-yo like shifts are ended permanently!
And I know that at the heart of what I need to do is the prayer, though not in desperation, “Jesus, please take the wheel!”. Now, to make sure I don’t take the wheel back.